I have a confession.
I don't want to vote.
It may come as a shock that I'm not the typical Republican Mormon.
But I've never strongly aligned with either party. I have voted for both over the years.
My husband and I rarely talk about politics.
It is something he loves, but he won't engage in a political discussion with me.
It drives me nuts, but mostly I think he's avoiding my mostly "liberal for Mormons" family (yes, most of them are like me-independents)
And so I don't want to vote.
But I feel very obligated to.
I remember feeling four years ago, like I was voting for the "lesser of two evils". I don't want to do that again. I want to feel good about my decision.
And I haven't felt that way about either option yet.
Don't get me wrong. I am a patriotic person. I have pride in our country. I feel very very strongly that once a president is elected, we need to support him. The hatred I see for our elected officials bothers me greatly.
I feel that our current President deserves more time to get us out of the mess that took more than four years to create, and it drives me nuts when people say that he's not done anything.
I am a strong supporter of healthcare change. I have pre-existing conditions. My five year old nephew has pre-existing conditions. Change HAD to happen, and I'm so thankful it did.
My brother slaves away protecting our city as a police officer but before this legislation, they wouldn't insure his son because he has asthma.
I am fearful of going back down a road that created this mess.
My family was personally and strongly affected by the economy. We lost jobs, and we lost a house.
I want change. I want to feel like we can succeed in our dreams.
I want the hope that someday we can own a house again and one day I can be a stay at home mom much more. I need things to improve.
But my heart and my conscience don't know yet who will take us there!