Friday, March 2, 2012

I have been touched by the support and love shown by all of you after my last few posts.
I think it's obvious I've been down in the dumps. I'm surrounded by family and friends, but it's been a difficult few weeks.

I've debated about how much I can say. It's my blog and my record and it's happening to me, but I don't want to share too much private information.

Many of you know that one of my sisters in law has been expecting twins.  They are due to arrive in the middle of March.  However, one of the twins has had a lot of difficulty from the start.  It has defied every expectation of the doctors, but this baby fought to stick around and protect it's twin sister until two weeks ago when we found out that it wouldn't make it.

My heart is broken for my brother and his family and this loss.  While it's ultimately what we expected to happen and probably the best thing for this precious baby, it is still a loss.

We have spent the last two weeks working very hard to prepare for the sweet little girl that we hope continues to grow and get cute and chubby for a few more weeks.  But when I get down time, I realize how I'm not handling it very well.  I am down and weepy and exhausted. And I'm only the aunt. I cannot imagine how hard this has been for them.

I am so thankful for the knowledge I have of eternal families.  Miss M has asked many times over these months about eternal families. I feel comfort in reminding her of the blessings of our temple marriage, that we will be together for eternity through the promises we have made. And I feel peace and security in the knowledge that I will meet this little baby someday.

In the meantime, I cannot wait for the birth of this little girl.  I'm so enamored with my littlest niece, and I can't wait for another one.  I look forward to the joy of being able to celebrate these babies.


Amy said...

I wish I was there to give you a big hug (before and after eating sushi). Love you girl...and the whole family. Thoughts and prayers will continue.

Amanda said...

Oh I'm so sorry and sad and heartbroken for your SIL. Last August my daughter was stillborn (full term, a week before my due date). I will keep them in my prayers, I know that was one thing that I felt buoyed me and my family up during a similar trial.

Musings from Minnesota said...

I am so sad too. This is making me cry Hugs and prayers for all the family. This must be really hard for all of you. I don't know what else to say. I'll pray for a healthy girl for all of you to cherish. Life is so precious.